Sunday, August 3

Counting Days

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I recently got hired on a new job after being unemployed for two months. I'm so thankful to God for giving me a new chance, this time I will do my best. One good opportunity also came, the company will fly us to Singapore this month! (Nervous and excited for this)

Aside from the blessings that came, I am counting the days for when I could see my love. Most of all, he is so dearly to me. From two years, we are down to six months! ( I feel more excited to this than flying to Singapore)

There are a lot of good things to look forward to.

Bless us always God.

Tuesday, July 1

Good Morning

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One day, I am going to wake up.Roll over on my side, and kiss the love of my life, Good Morning. 



Sunday, June 22

Frustrations

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When we are in a relationship, it’s not always sunshine and rainbows that we see. Being so happy is a great feeling. Feeling of happiness that you are very ready to die the next day. But wait! (my mind says) I need to see him first!

I know how hug is very comforting. All of my life, I’ve been dreaming to hug him so tight.

Feel him so close to me. Feel his breathe. Feel his warm. Feel his heartbeat. 

Many times I wish I could hug him most especially when he is not feeling fine. He also mentioned to me that he wants to hug me tight after a very tiring day at work. It makes me feel so wanted and loved but little sad as well…

This is one of the frustrating part of a long distance relationship. The feeling that you like to be there physically but not possible.

When he is sick, even he says he will be fine and no need to worry. I still feel worrying, I wish I could be there to take care of him until he feels well.

When he got a problem, I want to be like superwoman and solve it for him. But it’s not the way it goes.

All I could do is…

…sit and wait until the problem solves its own.
…makes him feel that I’m always here no matter what.
…listen to him.
…make him feel love.
…smile for him and says everything will be okay.
…make him happy.

I don’t know if I’m doing enough but I’m keeping my promise that I will not leave him. I will never ever do that. I love him so much.


Monday, June 9

100 Things that I love About You

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Last February, I send this list to Zit via email. He replied to me, "very true but not 100 :P
51 and 78 are same :)"  hehe. I have written doubled but I guess not in my mini book ;)



Hi Dear,
I want you to know that I love everything about you. I just list down the top 100 ;)
  1. I love your lips
  2. I love your ears
  3. I love your eyes
  4. I love your nose
  5. You’re handsomeness
  6. You’re a good brother
  7. Loving son
  8. Your logic
  9. Your voice
  10. You are well-organize
  11. You’re loyal to friend
  12. You’re generous to your friends
  13. You love dogs
  14. You like elephant :D
  15. I love the way you smile
  16. You brighten up my day
  17. You love your family
  18. The way you make me feel safe
  19. I can be myself with you
  20. We can act normal and crazy at the same time
  21. You look good in sunglass
  22. You doesn’t feel annoy when I call you donkey
  23. You appear in my dream
  24. Your craziness
  25. You love my hidden beauty
  26. You want us to together
  27. Your idea if tea party on blanket
  28. I can feel a good vibe with you
  29. Your name, the sweetest name
  30. Your presence
  31. I feel comfortable with you
  32. You make a better person
  33. Your kisses
  34. Your hug
  35. You’re understanding
  36. I’m the only one for you
  37. You care for your family
  38. You teach me the meaning of love
  39. You make my heartbeat fast
  40. You respect my religion
  41. You dream me as your wife
  42. The way you say you can’t live without
  43. The fact that you love music
  44. How you remember things even I thought you forgot already.hehe
  45. Your haircut
  46. How you easily turn me on
  47. You don’t want me to cry
  48. You like football
  49. Your sweet side
  50. Your not so sweet side.hehe
  51. You are my bestfriend
  52. That you don’t snore.hehe
  53. How you look perfect by myside.
  54. When I’m not okay, you’re not okay
  55. You being silly sometime and  how I’m silly with you
  56. How you get along with your friends
  57. You share your life story
  58. How we dream our future
  59. We share jokes
  60. You’re a sweet cousin
  61. The fact that you like green
  62. Your intelligence
  63. The way you say “nothing”.hehe
  64. You love space
  65. Your beautiful heart
  66. You’re the sweetest thing in the world
  67. You love rock music
  68. When I feel bad you cheer me up
  69. You’re mine and only mine
  70. The picture of me in your phone
  71. Your encouragement
  72. The way you dress
  73. Your open mindedness
  74. How fast you can make me feel better
  75. The way you surprise with little things
  76. You cared a lot
  77. You make me to keep going
  78. You are my bestfriend
  79. You’re planning future ahead
  80. You’re stubbornness
  81. I can talk everything about you
  82. You let me know everything about you
  83. You don’t flirt with other girls
  84. You’re a down to earth person
  85. Your sensitivity.
  86. You’re a sweet person
  87. Respectful to parents
  88. You don’t stop dreaming
  89. You like being around me
  90. All the nicknames you made up for me (elephant and pumpkin)
  91. Your poems for me
  92. How you tell you missing me
  93. You want to hold me
  94. You are listening to me
  95. You aren’t afraid to admit that you miss me
  96. You inspired me
  97. Even we don’t see each other, we are still inlove
  98. You stand on what you believe is right
  99. And most of all I love the way you make me to love you..
  100. I love how you and me  see ourselves in the future :)


Now, if I look at this list, I think I can add 100 or more. Each day spend with him, I got have learn something new. I'm feeling so lucky :)




Sunday, June 8

I Wanna Grow Old With You

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I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you..


6/9/2014 Passing the time  by listening to this song :)




Thursday, June 5

Moments of Love (June 3- 4, 2014)

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Why love is so mysterious? There are many times that I want to get lost in his eyes. I always do everytime. At some point he looks at me with no words. I see the curves of his smile. He looks at me closely. Then I ask him, “Why”? He answers me, “Nothing”. With that replied I know it means a lot. Some words are hard to be spoken. But inside our hearts it means overflowing emotions that we feel on that moment.

Moments of Love

I never felt negative feeling when I’m with him. Being with him I feel like that the rotation of Earth has stop. And it’s only me and him, living and breathing on our own world.

If someday will come soon, please hurry. My only dream is to be with the man I whom I love, whom I care the most, whom gives me an endless happiness. I want to spend my lifetime with him. Built our own family together. Take care of him. Grow old with him. Simple things but big enough for us.

I love you so much Mahal :-)

Tuesday, May 27

My Usual Day

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My day start with Zit, if he is still online we talk then say bye for awhile because I need to prepare and he needs to sleep :)

I prepare for work then say bye to everyone at home. As I go to work, I commute with bus. I always find a spot near the window. Seating near the aisle is such a pain because there are other commuters that suffer standing just to get on their respective work on time ( I myself experience this as well). The bad side of seating near the aisle where others are standing is that they keep banging on you even they don't mean it. So if you want a quite comfortable seat, choose a space between near the window or in the middle. As the bus moving forward, I never miss to praise how great was the morning. The pale blue sky and white clouds with little cold and hotness of summer air. It somehow gives me a sweet smile. 

Mostly, when I had a time alone with nothing to do. My mind goes somewhere, to somewhere where I feel peace.

Then suddenly my mood changes because of the traffic on the way. It's really frustrating how vehicles are stuck for almost a minute then you are going to see your wrist watch moving so fast... I just wish a miracle will happen. 

Then the traffic moves, as I reaches my destination, I need then to walk fast to catch a jeep to finally reach my workplace.

After the jeep, if I knew there's no more time left, I need to walk fast for almost 5 minutes to reach our building. 

On the building, I need to wait an elevator to send me in the 10th floor. Their elevators sucks, it often prompt
overload on it's screen. And sometimes I need to wait for minutes because either its full or it's too slow to go down.

Before, I go straight in our office, I always fix myself in the ladies room. I look like a mess totally!

Then before opening the office door, I always do the sign of the cross and ask God to guide me :)

I log for attendance, put my bag on my desk, get my tumbler, pour cold water from ref and drink.

Ever since, I started working in that place, working time is always quite. Only boss make noises, sometimes they discussed about work related using a language that we don't know and understand.

Mostly, my workmate spent their breaks inside the office because it takes to go down and up using the elevator. During breaks all we do is stand up from our work area then find food in the pantry or make coffee. After 15 minutes, work mode again.

Nowadays, during lunch break I do down with Claris. I really don't feel lunch break in the office because when we eat still its quite like we are working.lol 

Then after eating lunch, me, Claris and Muff went to the ladies comfort room and brush our teeth. Then work mode again.

During afternoon break, same thing happen. Then one and a half hour remaining before going home. I send summary report then log out and wait for elevator.

Check my phone for Zit message :)

Wait for jeep then shuttle and travel to home...as I travel I talk to Zit...even it's been a hard day..he makes it so wonderful at least :)

Then when I reached home, Zit needs to say bye because it's his time to go to work. After then, prepare for sleep. Then finally sleeping time :)

Sunday, May 25

lol (Zit's First Post)

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First Post
next time :) 


I was teaching Zit on how to post in blogger.com via Skype. This is his first post...
I encourage him to write more. He learn fast. He is a good student ;)

Saturday, May 24

Post Upload: Birthday Special ( April 8, 2014)

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It was a fine Sunday morning last April 6, 2014. April 8 is the exact birthday of my beloved. But since that time is His day off,   I decided to celebrate that day with him. It was 2 days earlier before His birthday.

That morning I have chatted with him like the usual things with do. I told him that I want him to a date after he wake up. I ask him to wake up around 1:00 pm (Singapore, Kuala Lumpur GMT). His time is 5 hours late compare to mine, to 1:00 pm my time is around 8:00 am to them. He promise to wake up but He got online around 4:00 pm!

I decided not to make a miss call because I was thinking he MIGHT be very tired from the job last night. As he wake up, he say wake up late for His first message. It's okay. I immediately told him to go online via Skype . To His surprise, I was in a park. With the background music while we talk. lol (perfect love songs for us)

I can see that he is so happy that time. Then I show my surprise to him ... yes .. birthday cake :)




I see him so happy and it did melt my heart. I want to hug that time. hehe Then we talk about random things on Skype. And need to say bye Because its starting to rain :) I love him so much.



Monday, May 19

Poem From the Heart

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Before, I feel like I was walking in an empty road.
Carrying such sadness and heavy load
Until one day a miracle happen
I met you and so fast I fallen

For loving a man, what do I know?
But you teach my heart so slow
Then I felt warm and my spirit glow

It's like a sun in a summer season
Giving me an overwhelming happiness for many reason

Even more trial for us to encounter
Our love,I know will never surrender
As strong as a mountain and booming thunder

I promise my heart is yours forever :)



Zit sometimes needs to work for almost 13 hours or more. I have written this poem that night when I miss him so... I sent this over our Skype conversation. I like when I make him smile and feel so loved :)
 

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