Frustrations

When we are in a relationship, it’s not always sunshine and rainbows that we see. Being so happy is a great feeling. Feeling of happiness that you are very ready to die the next day. But wait! (my mind says) I need to see him first!

I know how hug is very comforting. All of my life, I’ve been dreaming to hug him so tight.

Feel him so close to me. Feel his breathe. Feel his warm. Feel his heartbeat. 

Many times I wish I could hug him most especially when he is not feeling fine. He also mentioned to me that he wants to hug me tight after a very tiring day at work. It makes me feel so wanted and loved but little sad as well…

This is one of the frustrating part of a long distance relationship. The feeling that you like to be there physically but not possible.

When he is sick, even he says he will be fine and no need to worry. I still feel worrying, I wish I could be there to take care of him until he feels well.

When he got a problem, I want to be like superwoman and solve it for him. But it’s not the way it goes.

All I could do is…

…sit and wait until the problem solves its own.
…makes him feel that I’m always here no matter what.
…listen to him.
…make him feel love.
…smile for him and says everything will be okay.
…make him happy.

I don’t know if I’m doing enough but I’m keeping my promise that I will not leave him. I will never ever do that. I love him so much.