Frustrations

When we are in a relationship, it’s not always sunshine and rainbows that we see. Being so happy is a great feeling. Feeling of happiness that you are very ready to die the next day. But wait! (my mind says) I need to see him first!

I know how hug is very comforting. All of my life, I’ve been dreaming to hug him so tight.

Feel him so close to me. Feel his breathe. Feel his warm. Feel his heartbeat. 

Many times I wish I could hug him most especially when he is not feeling fine. He also mentioned to me that he wants to hug me tight after a very tiring day at work. It makes me feel so wanted and loved but little sad as well…

This is one of the frustrating part of a long distance relationship. The feeling that you like to be there physically but not possible.

When he is sick, even he says he will be fine and no need to worry. I still feel worrying, I wish I could be there to take care of him until he feels well.

When he got a problem, I want to be like superwoman and solve it for him. But it’s not the way it goes.

All I could do is…

…sit and wait until the problem solves its own.
…makes him feel that I’m always here no matter what.
…listen to him.
…make him feel love.
…smile for him and says everything will be okay.
…make him happy.

I don’t know if I’m doing enough but I’m keeping my promise that I will not leave him. I will never ever do that. I love him so much.

100 Things that I love About You

Last February, I send this list to Zit via email. He replied to me, "very true but not 100 :P
51 and 78 are same :)"  hehe. I have written doubled but I guess not in my mini book ;)

Hi Dear,
I want you to know that I love everything about you. I just list down the top 100 ;)

1. I love your lips
2. I love your ears
3. I love your eyes
4. I love your nose
5. You’re handsomeness
6. You’re a good brother
7. Loving son
8. Your logic
9. Your voice
10. You are well-organize
11. You’re loyal to friend
12. You’re generous to your friends
13. You love dogs
14. You like elephant :D
15. I love the way you smile
16. You brighten up my day
17. You love your family
18. The way you make me feel safe
19. I can be myself with you
20. We can act normal and crazy at the same time
21. You look good in sunglass
22. You doesn’t feel annoy when I call you donkey
23. You appear in my dream
24. Your craziness
25. You love my hidden beauty
26. You want us to together
27. Your idea if tea party on blanket
28. I can feel a good vibe with you
29. Your name, the sweetest name
30. Your presence
31. I feel comfortable with you
32. You make a better person
33. Your kisses
34. Your hug
35. You’re understanding
36. I’m the only one for you
37. You care for your family
38. You teach me the meaning of love
39. You make my heartbeat fast
40. You respect my religion
41. You dream me as your wife
42. The way you say you can’t live without
43. The fact that you love music
44. How you remember things even I thought you forgot already.hehe
45. Your haircut
46. How you easily turn me on
47. You don’t want me to cry
48. You like football
49. Your sweet side
50. Your not so sweet side.hehe
51. You are my bestfriend
52. That you don’t snore.hehe
53. How you look perfect by myside.
54. When I’m not okay, you’re not okay
55. You being silly sometime and  how I’m silly with you
56. How you get along with your friends
57. You share your life story
58. How we dream our future
59. We share jokes
60. You’re a sweet cousin
61. The fact that you like green
62. Your intelligence
63. The way you say “nothing”.hehe
64. You love space
65. Your beautiful heart
66. You’re the sweetest thing in the world
67. You love rock music
68. When I feel bad you cheer me up
69. You’re mine and only mine
70. The picture of me in your phone
71. Your encouragement
72. The way you dress
73. Your open mindedness
74. How fast you can make me feel better
75. The way you surprise with little things
76. You cared a lot
77. You make me to keep going
78. You are my bestfriend
79. You’re planning future ahead
80. You’re stubbornness
81. I can talk everything about you
82. You let me know everything about you
83. You don’t flirt with other girls
84. You’re a down to earth person
85. Your sensitivity.
86. You’re a sweet person
87. Respectful to parents
88. You don’t stop dreaming
89. You like being around me
90. All the nicknames you made up for me (elephant and pumpkin)
91. Your poems for me
92. How you tell you missing me
93. You want to hold me
94. You are listening to me
95. You aren’t afraid to admit that you miss me
96. You inspired me
97. Even we don’t see each other, we are still inlove
98. You stand on what you believe is right
99. And most of all I love the way you make me to love you..
100. I love how you and me  see ourselves in the future :)

Now, if I look at this list, I think I can add 100 or more. Each day spend with him, I got have learn something new. I'm feeling so lucky :)

I Wanna Grow Old With You

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you..

6/9/2014 Passing the time  by listening to this song :)

Moments of Love (June 3- 4, 2014)

Why love is so mysterious? There are many times that I want to get lost in his eyes. I always do everytime. At some point he looks at me with no words. I see the curves of his smile. He looks at me closely. Then I ask him, “Why”? He answers me, “Nothing”. With that replied I know it means a lot. Some words are hard to be spoken. But inside our hearts it means overflowing emotions that we feel on that moment.

I never felt negative feeling when I’m with him. Being with him I feel like that the rotation of Earth has stop. And it’s only me and him, living and breathing on our own world.

If someday will come soon, please hurry. My only dream is to be with the man I whom I love, whom I care the most, whom gives me an endless happiness. I want to spend my lifetime with him. Built our own family together. Take care of him. Grow old with him. Simple things but big enough for us.

I love you so much Mahal :-)